This is kinda a little bit personal. Only read it if you want to ha.

I’ve been feeling real shit lately about my family. Where I live it’s only me and my mum, and my sister will come down from the north island at least once a month with my nephew. So that’s all well and okay. And occassionally my grandad will ring me from the north island just to keep in contact, so I know he’s still up and running about. But then there’s my aunty and my cousins who live further up in the north island. We are close but not that close. It was my eighteenth on saturday and I don’t know how to say this without seeming ungrateful but the fact that I have such a small family meant that they could have sent me something, a card at least. I don’t get anything, not even a happy birthday from my dads side of the family. It’s like, hello? I know he’s dead but he is still my dad and I am still related to you. We are still family. I don’t know. I want to keep in contact with them but this kind of thing hurts and it’s just been hanging around in my brain lately. I’m not going to be spending christmas with any of my family. I think I will be spending it with my boyfriend. Because it’s just me and mum down here. And she wants me to have fun. That is nice of her but wow I miss the big christmases when me and my siblings were younger. When I had someone I could call a dad. When I had other family. Fuck lol. Gonna stop before I cry any more.

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Posted on December/15/2011
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1. kimanitheheartist said: Wow, that sounds very similar to my life. it has been that way since i was 18 or 19, or more so now with friends and family, and im going to be 28 on saturday. Happy birthday sweetie. at least we still have a couple people we love to share it with
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